Solong to life itself

Posted on November 8, 2015 by marsk4angel

Imagine there is no Heaven it is easy if u try…no hell below us, above us only sky image all the People living for the day, imagine there is not country, it is hard to do, nothing to kill or die for an no religion too .imagine all the people living life in peace…….. U may say I am a dreamer but I am not the only one. I hope one day u will join us and the world will be as one . 1907927_344891515694824_8553869141558523736_n When u have been floating towards the light, what many people call heaven and u actually just been pushed back into life, u should be happy, but i am not…..

Shameful i have to admit i am not happy and want to go back there, maybe egoistic maybe selfish if u consider the love i found with Kees my dearest love since 2005, my children who are adult but will have to live without me, to my cats and family and friends.

But this tremendous light, love, energy, i want to be there forever.

How to go on, well mostly i just live on, doing what i have to do, but every day i get up thinking okay u have to get out of bed, u have to go outside and be a brave human, do u work, ur household and enjoy life………but i dont enjoy much of it, sure i laugh, sure i love, sure i talk with friends and colleges as if all is normal.

I cannot be present, i cannot handle life anymore, accept the moments we had during our vacation, strangely enough then it seems okay, then life is somehow more important…… is it because the only issue is our food every day, nothing to worry about, no obligations, that is selfish too, and yes i know people are great too, artists of all kind, children and the nice evens that occur, but i actually dont want to be on this earth anymore, to be human, to live and see all the sorrow, to experience all the pain and abuse to animals, to mankind and earth itself, the bad site of this world is to big for me, the good side is not big enough anymore for me to see, to focus.

So two reasons to not be here anymore, being there at the end of the rainbow, in “heaven”, in the unconditional love and tremendous light and the way most of us live their life not aware, day by day going by with all horrifying events around them, keeping up society in earning money, banks with their filthy ways and not many people care enough, eating meat, they way this gets on their tray and i could go on for many pages to give more examples.

Of course, there are also so many nice, sweet and worthwhile living people and events to that. But as long as we not all become more aware of the inhuman earthly life we keep on creating, i choose the end of it, of life of being alive….. sorry for that.

I am not saying animals are more true, nature deserves it that mankind would have to go or people are not worth it, but how do u do it being aware of all and still go on……………. u may say it if u can. But i lost it, the urge to live, to wake up and start the day in innocence.

God, de heer, of is hett toch veel groter dan ons aards beeld.

Posted on July 7, 2015 by marsk4angel

Met klotsende oksels word ik wakker, wie ben ik? Waar ben ik?
In godsnaam, hoe zo godsnaam, waarom in godsnaam.
Wiens naam???
Ach laat maar.

Ben best spiritueel aangelegd en heb zowel het Boeddhisme als de Kabbala jaren bestudeerd, ook moest ik naar zondagschool, toen ik kleuter was.

Daarnaast heb ik de Tarot (kaarten) bestudeerd, toen ik 19 was en ze geschilderd allemaal….
En dus het verhaal over de hoge priester die met zijn geleide geest met een jonge student zijn geest meegaat naar allerlei dimensies, voorgesteld in 78 kaarten tot me kunnen nemen.
Die bewustzijns verbreding heb ik soms bijna lijflijk ondervonden gedurende de drie jaar dat ik ermee bezig ben geweest..
Prachtig om te leren allemaal en vooral te doen, de wijsheid die daardoor ontstond te kunnen toepassen ook..

Heel mooi om te weten waarom wij hier op deze aardkloot rondlopen, of minstens dat we hier niet zo maar zijn.

Maar god is voor mij dus niet een naar ons evenbeeld aanwezige grootheid, die ergens in de hemel? op ons neerkijkt en de een wel naar voren trekt en de ander niet, god kan je niet helpen, laat staan het voor je opknappen. Geloof is een prachtig gegeven, bidden een prima energie die jezelf lichter maakt……god bestaat dus wel, maar alleen is het niet zo’n mindbeperkende manbeeld op een wolk…..eigenlijk vind ik het een belediging van deze inspirerende overweldigende energie om deze naar onze kleine aardbol te halen alsof we helemaal alleen in het universum zijn, die oerknal, dat was het begin dus…..en dat is niet vergelijkbaar met een mens………. niet in beeld niet in aanzien, overdracht of wat dan ook……… dat hebben mensen gedaan/bedacht helaas waarmee het dus eigenlijk nietig is gemaakt……

Ook deze energie is afhankelijk van o.a. ons, van wat er in het hele universum gebeurt, waar wij dus onderdeel van zijn, deze pure energie kan worden verduisterd en juist lichter worden, je kan wel nagaan wat het beste is, hoe meer licht hoe meer bewustzijn, des te minder de ellende die wij toch voornamelijk zelf veroorzaken, bidden is dus heel oke, bidden betekend dat je deze energie lichter makt….. jezelf meer licht geeft en daarmee dus alles om je heen…..

Volgens mij is ”god” ontstaan door het weten dat er een immense gigantische, ongelooflijk grote liefdevolle energie is, een soort oerknal die eeuwig doorgaat in het hele universum, iets wat niemand kan beseffen en eigenlijk liever een opgelegd geloof aanhaalt, niet dat dit perse slecht is, maar wijs niet zomaar een ander geloof of dit gegeven af..
Deze gigantische energie bestaat uit louter liefde, puur en ongeëvenaard, dit is het licht, wat menig mens te zien krijgt als je (soms bijna) van deze aardbol af bent gestapt, dus dood bent.
Deze energie is zo onbeschrijflijk dat er hele boeken met religieuze verhalen zijn ontstaan, dat er geloof, religie is gekomen en geen wonder want er is geen vergelijk hier, geen aards woord kan dat eigenlijk beschrijven.
Deze liefde is zo onbegrensd en veelvuldig dat men dit gewoonweg niet kent, niet voor kind, dier, natuur of elkaar.

Veel van deze inzichten hebben me gebracht dat ik dus zeker ben van reïncarnatie, van meerdere levens als mens,.
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En niet tijdens 1 leven, maar door meerdere levens wordt de mens bewuster en dus vaak levenswijzer.
Daarom zijn er mensen die zgn. jong/blond/sociaal (soms) zwak zijn, hier kunnen ze (vaak) niks aan doen en meer nog, degene die wat bewuster is, was dus zelf ook eens zo’n zgn. sociaal zwak/blond/jong (van geest) mens, we zijn namelijk allemaal zo begonnen, als je dat inziet snap je veel meer..

Dus jammer dat mensen overal een hokje voor nodig hebben en niet gewoon meer accepteren, hun energie zoveel beter kunnen gebruiken, wat ook weer ten goede komt van de eigen karma enz.
Al kan je dit niet geloven, vraag je dan af, waarom niet en wat je wel geloofd waarom dat dan wel.
Denk na en neem je eigen besluit, creëer je eigen inzicht, heb geduld met anderen die niet zijn zoals jij.
Ga meer doen met je gevoel, je kunnen, dan zullen er toch minder negatieve vibraties ontstaan en wellicht dat dan ook minder ellende wordt veroorzaakt.
Hoe dan ook, ga eens na bij jezelf, hoe sta ik hierin, wat en hoe kan ik meer doen om te voorkomen dat deze wereld.
Wat kan jij doen voor jezelf en daarmee voor al hetgeen wat er om je heen gebeurd.
Denk aan de steen die in het water wordt gegooid, de kringen worden steeds wijder……….

What path is ur choice………or is it not choosing……

Posted on May 10, 2015 by marsk4angel

People have beautifull hearts, so be with ur heart.

Posted on January 12, 2015 by marsk4angel

WHAT U believe> so ur intentions are positive about what u do, u are able of anything, thats why men go to war, women play evil, (fanaticism and extremism will have a free way), they think doing good, they believe they are harmonious with it..or even will do good, make the world, their country, religion better History proofs that many times, in kingdoms and republics, being adult u cannot look as deep as when u are a child, because they do that natural. so as adult u need to see, that what u do needs an awareness, needs u to be fully there and not to much influenced by others, rules, or any role which is put upon u in society.
U really are all fundamental spirits, u need know it all every time, but u will always have the ability to recognize, and know why u do, want or act as u do.
If u are able to be this way, u will be so more balanced and see that u just live ur own life, that all what u believe in will happen.

Believe religion or any inspiration it is all for u, ur flow.

Posted on December 21, 2014 by marsk4angel

Do you believe that whatever you may be experiencing right now is designed to move you deeper into your grace and Authenticity? How so, you might ask. All the events in all our lives are integral aspect of how our own essence flows in direct proportion to what we believe about ourselves and the world around us in any given moment. So, whether it is something that excites you, brings you joy, challenges you, or gives you reason to pause, you are invited to remember that everything happens for a reason…and simply FOR you. I like to think of them as luminescent pearls of insight that light the way for us all. And when you accept these experiences for what they are and as they are, you will come to know that they are the very things that inspire what you are becoming through them. That is our journey…to remember who we are in our Soulfulness and being mindful of what comes through us to help in that endeavor. Are you open to seeing these pearls of insight in your experiences? Create for yourself an empowering day feeling the gentle and graceful flow of your own amazing journey through every experience…knowing they are guiding you into the greater Essence of who you are. Ofcourse u are guided by guardian angels, but they also where on earth to learn, like u.

why

Posted on December 12, 2014 by marsk4angel

Do you believe that whatever you may be experiencing right now is designed to move you deeper into your grace and Authenticity?

Why u could ask..

All the events in all our lives are integral aspect of how our own essence flows in direct proportion to what we believe about ourselves and the world around us in any given moment.

So, whether it is something that excites you, brings you joy, challenges you, or gives you reason to pause, you are invited to remember that everything happens for a reason…and simply FOR you. I like to think of them as luminescent pearls of insight that light the way for us all.

And when you accept these experiences for what they are and as they are, you will come to know that they are the very things that inspire what you are becoming through them. That is our journey…to remember who we are in our Soulfulness and being mindful of what comes through us to help in that endeavor. Are you open to seeing these pearls of insight in your experiences?

Create for yourself an empowering day feeling the gentle and graceful flow of your own amazing journey through every experience…knowing they are guiding you into the greater Essence of who you are.

Where do u go to my lovely

Posted on July 8, 2014 by marsk4angel

Where do u go to my lovely, when u are alone in ur bed, do u wander through ur mind or heart? Do u think of better times, or are u just to tired and sleep comes soon.

Are u wishing for more or just content, do u realize u are one of many, afraid of maybe just urself, ur mind is running of with u maybe.

U go ur own alley, way, path, just stick to it, not often u will go wrong way and if u do, u will find urself on a crosspoint again to choose the right direction. U just have to believe in urself, love urself in U, the angels will always be with u, if u know this or not, it are ur intentions what count.

Trust for ur own being, spiritual and earthly, not thinking what others may think of u, but what did u say or do wrong but more important what did u do well, so tomorrow it will be better, if u consider all day, in what u could have done or leave.

Dont dispair, we are all but a tiny spot on earth, but a lightening flame in the chain of light, surrounding earth, we are learning, every minute, that is, if u are aware, when u want that and see the benefit, u cannot take anything with u when leaving this earth, u will be able to leave some behind for next generations, not money, or being a celebrety, but because u tried to live ur life mostly with the best intentions.

So why worry, why getting dragged away by false thaugths, or others who are not with u, let it be, take urself by the hand and move on, believe it, u are real and able to change if needed. Again love is the most important to feel for u and others.

Even when u did wrong and cannot make it right u will be able to do good next time, its all about u, ur thinking (positif), ur intentions, ur input and balance, try to see that and u are halfway there.

For most of u. u are already special because ur interest goes futher then only earthly gain and wealth, ur path may be not strait all the way, with holes and bubbles, well here u are, congratulations. U ARE ALIVE and worth it. Just trust what is coming, dont look back, or aside when u are able to act, thats all, that is called life.

Maybe u want to rest better, sleep more or longer/deeper, try a mantra, like i pray for worldpeace, i pray for worldpeace………. then go to nothing or white/black, if possible empty ur mind fully………….maybe this will not just happen in one nite, but keep on trying.

Deja Vue

Posted on April 13, 2014 by marsk4angel

Where did i smell this before, a mix of vinigar, silver and mustard, the smell of a hotelbar in the morning, without the smoke and ash odeur which mostly goes with it.

From a place i once was and i knew instantly i would ever remember it, i would think of it, like it was milestone, a moment of pride, fear or astonishment, of being aware, present.

Will i ever find out, maybe, but it took me back, it took me back wanting to remember how it was to be a family, with my mother and father, sisters and even an aunt, who all lived in our hotel THE ANGEL in Deventer the place where i was born or with my partner and sons, allthough it is not the same, when u are the adult..

I am sad, i am longing for togetherness, want to be loved and have faith, feeling protected without knowing, is it important, is it a drop of water in the ocean of my life or just tying to be real and loved, the smell tells me this?

Is it my soul yearning for the light, the love, the everlasting warm glowing love there is when u leave ur body, when u go to gather with all who had a life on earth.

Years pass by and it all ads up, hours, days, doing what has to be done, going to work, doing the household and so on, life is ok nothing more nothing less.

Till u get a deja vue, then u know u have to stand still, think of what u are doing, making it worth more then just being, living ur life and getting along with it all. U are the one who makes the difference for u, the image is the voice of an angel, wispering u to look beyond the clouds of allday live, ur life.

Why do i write this down, is it my ego, thinking people will read this and so maybe feel it too, or recognize same vibration, a whisper of ur angelvoice making u aware of the fact u are here, on earth, completing what u have to do, being the difference for u.

2014 the year of purify.

Posted on January 18, 2014 by marsk4angel

Love free and let it go ur ego.

This year will be about the importance of gaining more balance for ur own sake, actually everybody needs to learn to judge less, if u would know we all started like young souls, u also have to be aware u have been there, we all have the same start, could it be as a poor or social low person, which is certainly not the same, what i try to say is, just see all of us as same souls, young or older. Thus don’t judge that easy, even when u try not to judge it will seem impossible, because our opinion makes us judge and so we have to be careful and prudent with what we think, or want to accommlpish.

Some people come into ur life to show u the way, to guide u or they want to learn from u, these people will not stay in ur life forever mostly, longterm relations are like lessons in life, together u will get more aware, feel love or maybe even create hate through others, remember we were all born without that knowledge, love is another matter, love is light, which/where we are going once we leave earth, maybe not directly but in the end we will be surrounded by that light, which contains endless love, so love is in the system, but hate is the darkness, start of many bad vibrations, doing verbal or in deed, mostly its from being denied, jalousie, which is same as hate the darkness, don’t be to afraid of it, when u have the right view u will concur it before it will go to far.

Let love be the first issue u care for, love for urself and then u will be able to love others. It is far from easy to just love, same way it is the most easy ever, when u know it, when u experienced it, if u feel it, warmth and clear feelings.

See the bird, u let it free, that is what u do when u know love, u allow urself to be selfish in a way which is needed to be able to be there, present, love going through heart, body and sending out the best vibrations on earth or even universe, u need ur ego, but not to mend u, not to be u, just to survive and be able to use ur mind, listen to ur heart and mind, make it work in balance, this year we all will be busy with getting it more clear and clean, don’t think to much, let it go, just follow the ones u like and listen well, u will learn to be more modest, or maybe the opposite, it depends what u experienced up till now. Do not fight, unless it is for the voiceless, take or give, both are same, u have to be able to do both and enjoy same way. Make urself happy, u deserve that and it (u) will be so much more worth for others.

See the light, purify, cleans and vlear urself in 2014

See the light, purify, cleans and clear urself in 2014

Wellness through love of angels and archangels.

Posted on November 15, 2013 by marsk4angel

Lean on us, for we enfold you in Love, and lift your perspective to new heights – Your Angels

Angel’s are always there to help you, but not until asked, this is due to free will. You have a choice to make your own path and decisions or you can ask for guidance towards your beneficial path of happiness and success. They do not judge you as they only know love.

Lonely and feeling alone is not the same, lonely is maybe wanted, but feeling alone mostly not, no fullfillment, no sharing and so creating happiness which actually is enabled faster when u are able to share.

Angels know all that happens in our lives. They know when we are down, happy, sick, frustrated, when u worry u feek down or getting down, but In fact, the solution to all of your worries may already have been revealed to you, you just were under so much pressure you didn’t hear your guidance talking to you.

If You Are Facing Challenges Or Seeking Answers. An Angel will give u the right thinking, feeling and so the answer, ofcourse ur own spirit is there too and when u are pure and positif, u will sure feel warm and also content with the answer u got.

Laughter is a wonderful healer. Sometimes a situation cannot heal until you release the challenge complete so that healing light might come along. Do not focus on what went wrong, focus on what went right and how to get more positif and that with the more positif thinking u will see and know that it is time to let it go.

Inspired by Spirit from up above, heaven sent from the angels with much love. Angels are the bridge between heaven and earth, so it’s no surprise that angels fulfill many different roles as our guardians. They guide, protect, watch, support, encourage, help, and heal us. They also teach us lessons on how to love and laugh and how to find peace.

Have you ever felt the presence of an angel?

Feel the gratefulness of a brand new day, wake up and say Thank You! Thank Angels for this day, thank you for your presence in my life, thank you for the sun, thank you for the rain. You can say thank you as many times you like. As you do this you are creating a day of positive energy, you are setting the frequency declaring the way you want to go. This is very powerful.

Life creates the universe, and not the other way round
This means space and time don’t exist in the linear fashion we think it does
And if space and time aren’t linear, then death can’t exist in ‘any real sense’ either, but ofcourse when u belief that u are already way past the earthly thinking.

Now lean back and let all this knowledge come to u, u dont have agree to all, but be receptif to it and feel pain flowing away, negatif thaugths will go and u will be more clear and clean to take ur own life and bring it to what it was ment to be.

The Angel Guidance

Our life, together and yet alone, about ur path, guidance

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