U know, there was a lot of angels, now there is only one left, who is able to enter earth and ‘heaven’, the messenger from and to us…… u can ask him to come and see u…… but u can better help u, if u pray, pray for worldpeace, no asking for ur self……… Many times u might have been on earth, but it is also possible that u did not even choose this life yet and been pushed in it……..and u are here for the first time. Realization of urself and ur doing with that, is the most important thing, never make an end to ur life……..it does not help……. and because u make ur family suffer by that it is even bad to do, so ask urself……when ur down and out……..what do i want, is that realety, is that love, hate, envie, being obsessed, how/what/why can i do that, and now-, close ur eyes and try to see a little ligth, above in between ur eyes, dont think, just keep ur eyes closed, after that, do whatever u like the most, so it easy fits in.
Because we all start the same way, we may be on different levels, due to awareness and being here not for the first time, this is no right to judge another, always know, u have been there too.
Everybody has her/his purpose and is able to reach it, if u doubt that…maybe u do not love or know urself enough… Why do we want to be together, why do u feel so good, when u are not alone, still we live our lifes in our own body, we cannot mingle, like water, but actually we want that, because we come from a demension, where we were like water all together, because we choosen to live on earth, to the someone, we become, to learn, to cleans, to die and go to another demension, a higher one, more close to that light, to go in the end, into that light, we call god, the lord, allah, holy father, to become one, this light is here, on earth as well, with whatever we do, we can either make it stronger or weaker.
Try to act knowing u are an example for children and never try to hurt……..